it’s been brought to my attention that the majority of my love notes on this blog are directed at boys. to be fair, the majority of these boys are the ones from backstreet and a certain quarterback who plays at UH. nonetheless, it’s true, so to even the score a bit today I’m dedicating one to someone I have known for 20 years, went to school with for 6 and have lived within 5 miles of for the majority of my life, but will try to describe in one word.
God gave me two little brothers, so I’ve never had a sister. but I imagine having one is like having steph in my life – over the years we’ve shared secrets, hopes, fears, daydreams and (backstreet) boys. her parents have probably fed me enough meals to list me as a legal dependant. there has been so much mixing of clothes and books and CDs over the years that sometimes I don’t even know what originally belonged to her or me. steph has been such a constant part of my life that I really can’t imagine it without her.
there was once in my life, when we were away at different colleges and I overreacted to something you said, when I tried to convince myself that I didn’t need you. but truth is, steph, I do. there is no way on earth I would have made it through this year without you being there on gchat to walk me through mini-meltdowns and help me count down the days until our next adventure. there is something about a friend you’ve known since you were in elementary school, someone who’s gone through – and is still going through – countless phases with you (beanie babies, gel pens, Disney channel, the never-ending BSB one), someone who’s known me since before I even really figured out who I was, that is irreplaceable.
we’ve grown up together, you and I. we’ve laughed with and at each other, cried with each other, fought and made up like sisters do. our relationship has changed and gotten older and more mature along with us, but in some ways it’s exactly the same as it was ten years ago, and that is a gift I treasure. I think God looks down and is proud of the ways we’ve both grown and developed. I love all the ways that we are the same (like our identical reactions to things) and I admire all the ways that we are different, the gifts you have that I clearly don’t - like manipulating graphs, mountain climbing and adding. combined, I think you and I could take over the world, and I like to think we’re making the little bit of it that we share better.
it was true when I used to write it at the end of every ridiculously-folded note, it was true when I said it before I signed off AIM every night, and it’s truer now, more than ten years later – love you like a sister, steph. maybe better known as…LYLAS!


